A CHANGE

Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me Your paths. Psalm 25:4





I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. Psalm 32:8





Well, it's the weekend. Hip hip hurray!? In this devotional FREE SPIRIT HAVEN: KILLER OF TIME, I wrote to you about my struggle with the spirit of laziness.



Yesterday I started to pray to God to help me this weekend to be wise with my time, to keep me from laying around and to not have the spirit of anxiety over me because it was the weekend.



I woke up at 5 a.m. this morning. I was ready to get up and start my morning. I do LOVE getting up REALLY early and spending time with God in His Word, in devotionals and through prayer. I talked to God this early morning, praising Him for waking me up and that I would just close my eyes for a bit, lol. 8 a.m, my eyes opened up.



I got out of bed and fought the discouragement of not getting up earlier, stopped the negative thoughts that were trying to bombard my heart: you didn't start you day off really well did you, you slept too long and now your going to do nothing all day, your body doesn't feel really well so you might as well just go back to bed and rest. BLA BLA BLA BLA!~



I PUSHED myself to DO! I put the coffee on and spend time with the Lord. After I did my readings and devotionals, I came to the computer and read some blogs, wrote some emails to people that were asking me for advice and prayer, read a few more blogs which this one Bring The Rain made me bawl and be brought into the presence of God and His love.

I finally got off the computer and started to get dressed. I put on my new "Saturday" clothes. I've really been praying to God about my appearance on Saturday's when I go out to do my grocery shopping and errands. Monday to Friday I am dressed to the T, and I stay home, LOL. Taking care of small children with runny noses, changing NUMEROUS diapers, wiping behinds (have four that are being toilet trained), and everything else that goes on with running a home daycare. Now dressed up means either jeans with a really nice top, matching earrings to go with the outfit, plus watch(I have a few,,lol), and my make up on. I also like to wear skirts or dressed during the week.

Saturdays you will find me wearing nurse pants (what nurses usually wear at the hospital, mine are green, well were)that are covered with paint stains. My top will consist of this Polo blue and white stripe shirt and a Labatt's Blue sweatshirt, which is also covered in paint stains. This wonderful 'get up' is also 6 sizes TOO BIG! This is what I have been wearing out in the public on Saturdays, with no make up on either, and if my hair hasn't been washed that day, a baseball cap that has Spoiled Rotten written out in crystals! Yes, crystals (my mother bought it for my daugther one year).

Home all week and dressed to the nine's. Out in public one day and well,,,you can just imagine how I look. Now back to the part of my new Saturday clothes. I went out last night and bought these yoga pants and two tops (alternate them every other Saturday). The outfit is extremely comfy, perfect for running errands, grocery shopping and cleaning the house!

Didn't put any make up on, just some lip stick and out my hubby we go. I felt good. I felt presentable, and I believe honoring to God with this temple of His that is my body and appearance.

I've been keeping myself busy today. Bought some LED lights to put in my China cabinet to lighten it up, grocery shopping and back home. I've made four batches of spagetti sauce. Cleaned the kitchen walls, outside of the cupboards and the ceiling fan.

It's been a batlle in my spirit. My flesh has become overwhelmed more than once and has wanted to give up and just do nothing. I've become anxious a few times thinking of all the work that I have to do.

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

At one point while I was cleaning and starting to get angry, frustrated, anxious and stressed, I felt the Lord speaking to me: "Angela, your not asking me to to show you the way, to help you go about your day". "Angela, you need to have a happy heart as you go about your day".

Ok, Lord!

I felt better after that. Remembered I needed to keep my eyes on Jesus, not everything that needs to get done.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understand, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

We, daugthers of the King of king and the Lord of lords have awesome responsibilities. We are keepers of the home. We are the anchor that keeps our family from being tossed too and fro in the storms. We are the incense that flows throughout the home and that brings delight to our family and friends senses who enter in our home.

Some of you may not think your doing a great job keeping your home, or that your anchor is dragging your family into the depths of the sea, and that incense that is coming from you, well it's a stench.

I can say this because I believed this about myself at one time. I couldn't understand why God would keep me here, in this family, and bring such destruction upon all of them because of my , my words, my actions, and my thoughts that I had towards them.

The difference from then and now is my walk with God has changed. My thought life has changed. My thoughts have begun to line up with the Word of God and what He says about me, about my family, our circumstances, and the trials we face each and every day. As my thought life has lined up with God's Word, my words have now begun to line up with the Word of God.

Instead of speaking death, anger, destruction, depression, sorrow, pain, wrath,,,oh my,,you get the picture of how I used to speak? I speak life. When it's hard to speak good, I keep my mouth shut and get right into the presence of God to allow Him to minister to my heart and my thoughts so that when I do speak, it will be in love.

So today I am being set free from the spirit of laziness. Oh my, God is transforming me, setting me free to be a joyfilled homemaker..OH MY it really is exciting just writing it out.

I LOVE being a homemaker. I love the vision I have held close to my heart about being a homemaker, one that goes about her days, doing good for her family and not harm. (Proverbs 31).

Thank you for coming and visiting me. Thank you to those that have been praying for me, and those who have also shared that they struggle with this also. Please know I have been keeping you close in my thoughts and prayers.

God bless you and know your loved. I love YOU!
amen amen amen

A CHANGE

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