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(Most)blessed is the man who believes in, trust in, and relies on the Lord, and whose hope and confidence the Lord is. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters that spreads out its roots by the river....It shall not be anxious and full of care in the year of drought, nor shall it cease yielding fruit. Jeremiah 17:7-8
I found this scripture on the weekend in one of my devotionals. What caught my eye was "it shall not be anxious and full of care in the year of drought, nor shall it cease yielding fruit".
That caught my eye because on the outside I looked like I was filled with peace and joy.
The inside though, was filled with anxiety and the cares of the world. Cares for my family. Or more correctly, OBSESSING and WORRYING about my family.
As I was pitter pattering around this morning before sitting down to write the devotional, anxiety was filling me. On the outside I may look calm, but the inside I'm shaking with fear.
Early Sunday morning in the wee hours I kept waking up.
Each and every time I woke up I felt the Holy Spirit speak.
Rest in the Lord.
Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him. Psalm 37:7
Rest Angela.
Rest in the Lord.
Are you resting Angela?
Is your spirit man resting in the Lord Angela?
I had a conversation with my son Randan Friday morning.
"Your are the most stressed out person I have ever met Mom."
"How can you say that Randan. My goodness, everyone can't believe how much peace and joy I have."
"Mom, your really stressed. The people on your blog don't see you"
"Even Diane says she can't get over how calm I've been."(my neighbor)
"She's being nice."
Than he said something that was so powerful.
"If you have to keep reminding yourself that your not stressed and worried all the time, than you REALLY are stressed and worried. Your trying to talk yourself out of it."
When I was woken all through the night, and the Holy Spirit kept saying 'rest in the Lord', I kept thinking back to what Randan said.
Am I TRULY resting in the Lord?
Or do I meditate upon the cares of this world. The cares of my family.
What do you do when you have a child, a young adult child that seems to be consumed with addictions?
What do you do when you have a child that is a teenager and seems like someone from another planet?
What do you do when you have a child that has become a teenager, has become a 'woman' and now has an 'attitude'?
What do you do when your husband has started to work after being off for one year and is now bringing home a pay cheque?
Do I continue to rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him?
Do I start to try to 'fix' everyone around me once again.
I have to let go and let God.
God is showing me what resting in Him and waiting patiently for Him really means.
Rest: calm, relaxed, at peace, assured of the outcome, free from fear, worry and anxiety.
I felt the Holy Spirit saying to me that when I am truly resting in the Lord and waiting patiently for Him, when anxiety, fear, worry, and obsessiveness try to invade my spirit, it will just roll off of me. There will not be a struggle, there will not be a tug of war.
You anoint my head with oil;Psalm 23:5
I've heard in the Old Testament times when the men were preparing for battle, they would put oil on their shields. They did this for when facing their enemies, the sun's brighteness would reflect on their shields and blind the enemies as they faced them.
God anoints my head with oil.....Anoints my mind with His sacred oil so that when those emotions of fear, worry, anxiety, panic come facing me, they WILL be blinded! They cannot enter in and wreak havoc upon me.
This past year I have rested in the Lord and waited patiently for Him.
Now He is calling me to continue on resting in Him and waiting patiently for Him as He works all things out for our good and His glory.
He MUST increase within me, I MUST decrease.
Thy Kingdom come Father God on earth as it is in heaven.
amen amen amen
8 comments:
I love you.. and I love you more that you say how you truly feel sis.
Yes teenagers are from another planet..and it seems they are all consumed with addictions. Its then i get down on my knees and pray for guidance and strength.. you are my connection..my friend my sister in Christ.
I LOVE YOU ANG!
Praise God I didn't know your husband got a job! Great news!! I'v gone thru the teenage thing, in fact am still going thru it, my Abby is 19 , can relate to all you are saying about it!
Amen Amen Amen. Praising God for the job!!
You are so right, we must rest and patiently wait. It's incredible how God is using the ones who know and love us most, to reveal what our deepest struggles are. When we talked about this matter, I realized I hadn't truly rested in the Lord when it comes to intermittent fasting. Praise God I'm resting in Him today and feel great!! Love ya!!
God gives great things to those who wait on Him! I believe God used Randan to begin your thought process and then completed it for you in the night by the power of the Holy Spirit.
He has been lecturing me about resting in Him also...physically and spiritually!
God bless my dear friend!
Amen to everything you say! God WANTS to give us rest, if only we can accept that precious gift. I am a worrier too and I am working on this, myself. Thanks for reminding me how important it is to rest in God.
Congrats on the job!!!!!!
Beautiful post. Here lately I've been reminded of Jesus words:
Come to me all you who are weary and heavy-laden and I will give you rest.
Isn't that wonderful?
Enjoyed this a lot!
So very true sis, love you.
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