I sit here this morning with the computer in the shop, with Asher still needing to get out of bed (wanting to sleep in), with Randy still looking for full time work, with Randan's engine light not going off, with the rec room and Randan's new bedroom being remodeled, including the hallway, with CWL elections this week where I may be President , where the economy states we are in a recession and our income is a quarter of what our bills are.
Here I sit Jesus. At Your feet. At my right hand Your Word declares You are here, my family and I will not be shaken.
I rest at Your feet Jesus. I sit here and rest my head on Your leg and rest. Rest on You. Rest in You.
Jesus come. Come and heal this nation. Come and heal this world.
I got the call from the computer store. Two hundred dollars.
SIGH.
Randy started to make excuses. Turned off another breaker, didn't know it was attached to the computer too.
"I'm not going to get into this" was his reasoning.
I stated all the other times he would ask if it was completed before he would touch the power. Can't admit he messed up. Can't admit he made a mistake. Can't say, "I'm sorry hon for screwing up."
Holy Spirit, what keeps going through my mind is Anita's death. Randy responsible in watching her. Randy asking his siblings to care for Anita. Anita run over by a car and dies. Randy refusing to go to her funeral.
Randy refusing to accept he messed up? Made a mistake? Blaming others? Not taking ownership?
Does it continue to repeat itself day by day? Months? Years?
Holy Spirit, again I'm placed in a circumstance of resting in the Lord and waiting patiently for Him. A cost comes to my life. Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him. Do not walk in the old ways. Rest and wait.
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I am praying, and I love you.
It's really hard when someone won't own up to their own crap.
I used to be like that a lot. It took me a long time to accept responsibility for things I did. Mistakes I had made.
Praying for you!
((Hugs))
Laura
God has given you a powerful ministry and the enemy is going to try to do whatever he can to stop it. I'm praying for the difficulties you are going through sister and am confident God is going to bring you through; stronger and more powerful than ever before.
"When the enemy comes in like a flood, The Spirit of the Lord will lift up A standard against him." Isaiah 59:19
Praise God for His wonder-working power!
Love you Angela!!
Wow...resting and waiting...God will hear your prayers.
I feel a bit confused about Randy and something you spoke about. I don't know what happened in the past, but it must haunt him---and people who can never own up to a mistake, no matter how small or great have to be in a lot of pain. they either turn in inside--or they turn it ON people. Not sure which is happening here, but I pray Randy will let the Lord speak to his heart about it. The pain for you and him must be intolerable at times!
Love you!
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