I'M SO DONE!

Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I say rejoice. Philippians 4:4

The phone rings at 4:00 yesterday.

"Tell Randan to come to No Frills. The truck will not start."

Lovely!

The truck.

Randy`s pride and joy.

His baby.

Three years old.

Can you sense the tension trying to flow? The anxiety trying to take over?

How about a panic attack?

While I tell Randan that he needs to go help his dad push the honking truck out the pathway of oncoming cars, another phone call comes.




"Hi whatcha doin?"

My mother on the other end.

"Just cleaning up."

She starts to chat away.

In the back ground I am listening to Randan swear about giving him a break about going to help his dad (I called him a second time to see if he was leaving, which sent him off on a tangent).

As my mother is still chatting, the daycare child is under my feet dancing around with five tutu`s on (her outfit she says) and her babbling away telling me to `watch me watch me dance Miss Angie`, I hand Randan 20 dollars for gas since he has just informed me he has no gas in the car.



Yes, while on the phone with my mother I get another call.

My brother.

"OH I will let you go, tell your brother your going to have breakfast with us than on Sunday after Church. And remember, he is coming to Church too."

"Whatcha doin?"

"Just talking to Mom Peter."

We than proceed to talk about everything my mother had said to me on the phone. Church. Breakfast. Going out for coffee with mom to meet a girl that my mother is trying to hook Peter up with.

Let your gentleness be evident to all.

The Lord is near.

Ok Lord. Ok....

I am hanging on here.

Be loving. Be gentle.

Do not obsess.

Call Randy to see how he is doing.

Not good.

He is peaking.

I get off the phone fast so I do not peak with him.

All the above has taken a matter of 15 minutes in total.

"Miss Angie, there is pee all over the floor."



Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.

During this entire drama that was happening do not think my flesh was not trying to act up.

Do not think I wanted to scream to my mom when she called that I was stressed out because our truck just broke down and this definitely was NOT good time to happen to us. Remember, hubby has been out of work for 16 months now.

Do not think I did not want to scream at my brother and tell him this was NOT good time for him to call.

Do not think I wanted to scream at the child who has been talking NONE STOP, and asking me to look at her EVEN though I was looking at her and telling her she was dancing beautifully.

Do not think I wanted to to obsess about the truck, figure out the why would this happen, what are we going to do, how are we going to do this.

Do not think that all of this was going through my mind.



So what did I do?

After helping her get changed, washing the floor and throwing the wet carpet in the laundry room we did this:



Yes, we watched Dora and I wrote in her journal.

Since I'm obsessive compulsive I can multi task at MANY things all at once.

So I also Philippians 4:4-8 my thoughts.

I prayed over my husband and thanked the Holy Spirit for filling my husband with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, goodness and self control.

Once the child left for home I did this:


I sat in my prayer corner and took out my Bible Study to write out a scripture:

Make known to me Your ways, Lord; teach me Your paths. Guide me in Your truth, and teach me, for You are God my Savior. For You I wait all the long day because of Your goodness, Lord. Psalm 25:4-5

I raised my face to the ceiling with a smile on my face, basking in God's love and goodness. Actually thinking about all of you and what I would be writing today.

Sharing how I could smile, have peace and joy, EVEN in the midst of the battle that was raging all around me.



I started to set the table and prepare a lovely meal for the family.

Randan received a call from his dad asking him to pick them up. Shaneah and Randy were in the process of getting their hair done when this all happened with the truck.

When they got home, Randy was no where to be found.

He stayed back waiting for the tow truck to bring it to the dealership.



Two more phone calls came in.

Both in need of Philippians 4:4-8.

Don't think the flesh didn't want to kick up a storm again.

To participate on the negativity that was being spewed out and to spew it right back.

Finally brothers, (sisters), whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things. Philippians 4:8

I chose this!

Randy got a ride home from one of the daycare dad's that works for the dealership.

Randy walked in filled with peace.

Randy informed me that the daycare dad got a call for an interview from a company that Randy had also applied for.

SIGH....

Philippians 4:8!

When I say I'm done, I'm DONE.

I'm done being sick.

This is life.

This was part of my story from yesterday. I won't get into what happened in the morning with having to deal with even more HUGE problems, more negativity, more stresses.

It's your story too precious one.

This is life.

These are our days.

It's one thing or another.

One obstacle, one problem, one mountain, one storm.

This is life.

A thief has come to steal, kill and destroy. I have come to give you life, an ABUNDANT life. John 10:10

Praise and glory to God.

Even though Satan MAY try to steal, kill and destroy precious one,,we have LIFE. An abundant life in Christ Jesus.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control to go about our days.

Get your eyes of the stealing, killing and destroying.

Get your eyes on Jesus.

Let Him do this to the stealing,killing and destroying:

While doing this devotional all I kept hearing within my spirit was:

This message needs to get out Angela. They need this.

Thy Kingdom come Father God on earth as it is in heaven.

amen amen amen

I'M SO DONE!

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